I’ve been back in Arizona for a week now, and I’m pretty much settled in again. It was really nice to not have to move furniture and all that this year for the first time in four years. Woo hoo!
As I drove back last weekend, I was struck by God’s faithfulness over the last four years. As my family drove me down to ASU for my first year here, I was scared. That morning we left the home of friends in California, and it felt like I was leaving everything safe. The rain and thunder the night we arrived made this place feel even more threatening even though it was cool, too.
Over the next three years, it got easier and easier to come back but not easy to leave my family. My second year, I drove down with my mom and had a blast with her for a week. Then she left, and I steeled myself for the year ahead. It didn’t matter that it was not all new this time. The fear of what could be seemed to linger.
My third year here, I no longer hated it, and even felt like I could take advantage of the last year of my scholarship and stick around a little longer. I could look back and see that God had worked in my life both over the last school year and the summer. As that year progressed, both challenge and fun increased. I wasn’t so afraid to come back for my last year.
God did cool stuff in providing everything I needed last fall- a house to live in, roommate to live with, furniture to use in the room, etc. It was an interesting but really good year with thesis, student teaching, ministry, and friends. The decision of what to do post-graduation hung over my head the whole year, and I alternated between trusting that God would lead me and freaking out about how and when He would do that.
And now, I’m back. Four years ago as I came to Arizona kicking and screaming (inside, not outside ;P), and this fall I’m back again without the kicking and screaming. This time, I’m excited to see what God will do and what this year will look like. There’s a lot that I don’t know about the rest of my life, but I’ve learned again and again in different ways over the last four years in Arizona and Seattle that God is faithful.
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I’ve told several people (and I can’t remember exactly who all, so I’m hoping they read this occassionally) that I would send them this link for the Modesty Survey done by The Rebulution, “a teenage rebellion against low expectation.” It is a survey done of 1,000 Christian guys regarding their thoughts on specifics points of modesty in clothing choices and mannerisms by Christian girls. I found it interesting, and you may too.